| | As busy as life is, there's always time to think about it.
I got a Tarot reading awhile back and it told me three distinct things:
1. That I had a very powerful soul which was most likely old.
2. That there would be a powerful female figure in my life.
3. That I had a big decision to make, some sort of hurdle to get over, and one course of action would lead to true happiness and the other would lead to a life of quiet desperation.
I've been thinking about that decision...if it even exists...and wishing I knew what it was so I could make it, because I believe I'd make the right choice.
I think maybe it might be about love and this new girl I'm seeing. I'm not insanely infatuated or in love with her...it's just kinda "okay." But the more time I spend with her the more I need her. And maybe that's how love is supposed to be...or maybe you need that infatuation and minor obsession. Should love be instantaneous or should love grow?
And the question I have is that the decision might be to either run away now and set a standard for not being with women I'm not 100% in love with...or...the decision might be to stay and give her a chance because she might make me truly happy. Both ways seem right and both ways seem wrong, and if this is the major decision, I don't know which way to go with it. I think I'd like to wait on it and see if I truly love her and if I realize that I don't, the life-altering decision will be to stay with someone I'm not in love with because it's easy or to keep fishing.
Though, I tend not to believe in this sort of thing. Perhaps the decision is to live life for me, to make the choices I feel are best and that go along with my moral code and if I'm unsure, to take the time to find out how I really feel about it, so I don't get scared and just pick one. Of course, you can never be 100% sure about anything, but you should make sure you have all the facts and you truly know.
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| | Posted 3/20/2009 12:43 AM - 36 Views - 2 eProps - 2 comments
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